Strangers in the night

Wish I had a time machine , I would have gone back in time  & would re arrange the entire set up of my first date with R , it would be the time of sunset near a beach in an empty open air restaurant with Mojitos and Frank Sintara's  Strangers in the night playing in the background.

Love

Nimisha

Rebecca (1940)

Last night at around 11 pm right when I was going to log off my laptop, I stumbled upon the movie -Rebecca on youtube &decided to watch (I dont know why I always end up surfing youtube till late in the night, only to complaint the next day how little I have slept). Ok so coming back to this film, It was made in 1940,  more than half a century from now (at the moment I am in a reading & watching classics mood) . I was searching for the book by the same name which inspired this movie but could not find it & I am very glad that I didnt.

 I always find it difficult to relate withe Old time movies & stories, but I was happy to find that this movie was different or may be my perspective is changing, I was in awe with all the characters & the story telling part & it kept me hooked till the end of the movie.I was mesmerized by the beauty of Joan Fontaine who played the role of second Mrs. De Winters, she remained nameless in the movie & at some points I wanted someone to call her by her first name, I wanted to know the character by her name but she remained Second Mrs. De Winters (weird but yes I am like that).

Mr. & Mrs. De Winters (Laurence Olivier & Joan Fontaine)

 Breakfast at Tiffany's made me fall in love with Audrey Hepburn & watching Rebecca made me realize that beauty  of Joan Fontaine is simply impeccable.


If ever I would have an opportunity to take part in a play my first choice will be definitely "Rebecca"

 Love
Nimisha


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Calling

 We all have to start a new phase some or the other time but when the time comes it how a person reacts is what differentiate all of us.I always get scared to death ,& keep thinking why things are changing now.
"Change is only thing that is constant", I have read this phrase like a gazillion times but still the part of me which screams inside my head "I Dont want this change" needs a training, I need to see the brighter side of the upcoming change also.


Love


Nimisha

What could have been

Sometimes we keep on living in the shadows of "what could have been" what if I would have taken up a certain career choice, or met different people , married a different person. Yes whenever I go through a down in  my life I keep repeating to my self what could have been & build imaginary castles of what an amazing life  I would have had if I would have studied something else, took up a different career or marry someone else, but the reality is my life is amazing, the career choice, family , friend nothing could have been better.

I need a constant reminder to myself now that all the choices & decisions that I made for myself are the best things that happened to me.


Nimisha

Pause

Sitting by the window of my room today I think of the future..How would it be after five years, where I would be , what  I would be doing, will there be new people in my life, who would they be, how my relationship with R would be, would I be able to take care of mum & B with honesty as I try to do today. Will I create a better & more meaningful life for myself.

Every person who has come across my journey till now , had something to offer, sometimes I learned and sometime I didn't, as the cloud of complaining really didn't let me see the opportunity. There were & are lot of people, places, situations & books who have changed me for good & bad without me realizing it at that time.

Is it easy for a person to be compassionate & happy everyday. Is it possible for me or anybody to wake up everyday & feel contented. I am trying to be on that path but I know it is easier to be sad than to be happy cause it the choice that I would have to make everyday of being grateful of what I  have and what one change that I would like to make very single day.

Some changes that I want to have in me are:

Being away from my cellphone, T.V. & internet for once a while: I am one of those maniacs who constantly have to touch and look around for one of the gadgets.

Read more of Gretchen Rubin, Robin Sharma, Khaled Hussaini & other authors that I like very much.

Connect to friends on personal level & not on FB.

Walk everyday

& decide on a Mentor.


Nimisha