I miss you everyday

Now I know why you never bought Dolls for me & gave me bats  & tanks to play with, now i got to know why you took my opinion & gave me responsibilities even when i had no understanding of anything, now I saw why unlike other girls I was never served things on a platter. Now I see the reason why I was left alone to face situations and you never told me to come back even when it was most difficult of times.

Thanks for raising me differently , because God had a different plan for me & you were only  preparing me for it.

I owe everything to you, & will try to complete every responsibility for which you left me.

I miss you very much papa & I am sorry for being angry on you on my last birthday, never knew it would be the last with you.

Love you very much.

Watch Out

Feeling very lonely today and dont know why, may be because of all good old memories, people who cared about me, made me feel that i exist for them in an important way. I was pampered by everyone , Papa & mumma started it, friends in college made it worse.

I know everyone is dealing with issues in their lives &  everyone now have their own priorities ,other than making me feel good & happy all the time, but i hate to be less important.

Previously,
Surprises = too many, tiresome (never valued them that time)

Now,
Surprises = do not exist

I miss all those daily dose of chocolates, my first bicycle, walks to ATMs, Guitar sessions, bagfull of cryons, out of no where candle lit dinner.

People say, whatever you give, you get back, but when? i am tired of being the good old nanny, cant really do it anymore..need a break from everything.

Pledge: For people to whom i am not important, they would not be matter of importance for me from now (Want to scream).

Thank you blogger, for giving me a space where i can write whatever i feel (Good , Bad or Ugly about myself, without being hyprocrite where i have to be only picture perfect & look happy all the time)

Deepawali

I know its been more than ten days that Diwali has gone, but being very puntual about my unpunctuality i m posting the diwali updates now.

This time, for me Diwali was an interesting day made up of  a night halt, a long flight, a cup of coffee & last but not the least a lot of fun! So this diwali was my first Diwali after my marriage, n it was serious fun .Posting some of the pics:

The divine lights

CM & RD  after the entire prep of Pooja

oyeeeeeeee

Sanjib



eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

 Had a great Deepawali